There has been so much going on lately that makes me want to rant, I feel like I can't talk at all anymore because I don't want to feed into the negativity. Between this current joke of a presidential race that's going on, the things that have been happening in Florida this past week (when it rains it pours in Orlando!), and all the hate flying around all the time, I'm exhausted. I try to avoid it altogether, but it's nearly impossible.
To make matters worse, I'm teaching summer school in the district I teach in (which thankfully is not the one my children go to), and the culture in this district is so self-destructive and self-inhibiting, it's a wonder the kids have gotten as far as junior high. I've only been teaching one year, but I'm already fighting being discouraged. It's all just SO different from how I was raised. I look back and feel like a total slacker because I'm just now starting my career - and I still maintained A's and B's all through school! We have TONS of kids who fail multiple classes and it's as if they don't even care. I don't get it!
So every day, I am finding myself going home with my shoulders slumped, eagerly crawling onto my couch to disappear into some computer game or another episode of Game of Thrones (I'm playing catch up as I only just started watching it). I wish I had access to the Goblin King who could just take me away to some fancy masquerade ball in the clouds, and all this reality would fall away. It's too heavy and dark.
Or maybe I just need to change my perspective. I need to try harder to "raise my vibration" and be the change I want to see, I guess. It's just really difficult to maintain that day after day when it feels like everything else is fighting against it.
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